Have you had gut-wrenching weeks when all your energy is gone and the breath is sucked out of you? You can’t find the strength to go on?
I know…stupid question. We all have.
Well, this has been one of those for our family.
Recently we discovered an aggressive cancer has invaded my brother’s body and he’s in need of a bone marrow transplant. This has devastated our family and stopped us in our tracks.
Questions filled my mind. Why, Lord? He’s only 54. Why let this happen? Why put him and Natalie through this? They both love you and serve you faithfully.
Why, why, why?
My sister and I were tested to see if we’d be a donor match.
WHAT? Again…why, why, why?
I’m just being totally 100% honest with you. Even though we knew there was only a 25% chance we’d be a match, we hoped for the best. We did everything we thought we should. We prayed hard, prayed on our knees, prayed together over Skype. Had others pray.
Why didn’t He answer our prayer?
We don’t know.
Friends, we don’t understand why God answers a prayer with “no,” but we have to trust He’s in control. That’s what our family is holding on to right now. We’re surrendering Murray to the Master Healer.
Even though we don’t understand why He didn’t answer yes, what we do know is…
He has a plan.
And, we choose to BELIEVE…
Exodus 14:14 (The VOICE)
The Eternal will fight on your behalf while you watch in silence.
These songs have become special to our family through this journey. Even when we don’t know the reasons why and when we can’t see His face, we know we’re not alone. He goes before us and walks beside us.
We. Are. Not. Alone.
I Choose to Believe by Phillips, Craig & Dean (written by Tony Wood, Dan Dean, Don Poythress)
I Am Not Alone by Kari Jobe (written by Mia Fieldes, Ben Davis, Marty Sampson, Kari Jobe, Grant Pittman, Dustin Sauder, Austin Davis)